a wish

I wish to feel smaller under your sheets. i wish for the whole truth every time you speak. i'm thinking about how you care half as much for me while i watch you arrive, smoke cigarettes and sleep. and i guess it doesn't matter what i say or what i seem. you stuck what i felt for you in the pocket of your jeans. ignoring me the morning after isn't enough and i swear i'm gonna cry. i'm sick of trying to be tough. and my blood won't stick to the confines of my veins. and your heart is going to tear mine away. and i wish to feel smaller under your hands. though you seem satisfied as you slip mine down your pants. and i guess it doesn't matter what i am or pretend to be because it's her you'll always love and it's her i'll always envy. i want to end this now so dreams of you won't keep me up. and it's hard to find what i want when its buried beneath the biggest rock. i could pay lots of money to help lift it with  machines. but i'm not sure you'd cooperate not sure you'd come clean. your heart teared mine away.

memory and honesty

I had a dream, it was lasting, it lasted the whole day, i dreamt you had left me and when i woke the mirror said to me maybe it's true, it could be true... you were caring, you had honest eyes, you were perfect, the perfect surprise, til your hands crept up my chest and gave a stronghold on my neck, you said baby it's true, i'm leaving you...  

HYPE

young socialites

I never loved nobody fully. always one foot on the ground. and by protecting my heart truly. i got lost in the sounds. i hear in my mind. all these voices. i hear in my mind all these words. i hear in my mind all this music. and it breaks my heart. and suppose i never met you. suppose we never fell in love. suppose i never ever let you kiss me so sweet and so soft. suppose i never ever saw you. suppose we never ever called. suppose i kept on singing love songs just to break my own fall. all my friends say that of course its gonna get better. its gonna get better.

c [4] c

now i'm wide as the ocean. now bleed roses. and you are just a mark on the map of my past. but i am a road i wind along alone all day until the coast

one by one the days fall beside us

you know nothing lasts forever

your heart is going to pull mine away

i swear i'm going to cry i'm tired of trying to be tough

I'm flying higher

i wish to feel smaller under your sheets

a thousand days

i'll never forget you

closer

someone loses someone they love everyday

chloe

prada

you think its all okay

summer nights dream

bare all

featuring samantha chadwick

evil twin

taxi sessions

friday night candle light

moonlight party

let your mind go

today is going to be the day

chase the sun

spin we around again

paints the world with her magic wand

you make it real for me

not to worry cos worry is wasteful and useless in times like these

if i could tell the world just one thing, it would be, that we're all okay

i wish i may i wish i might

the history books forgot about us and the bible didn't mention us

beneath the sheets of paper lies my truth

rush

have this wish i wish tonight